THINGS THAT GO

While things haven't been going the way I want them to at all, I try to think that maybe there's a reason. Maybe I shouldn't be in such a hurry to accomplish certain goals, maybe I'm not in that place yet. Some things I have no control over, and they stop me from moving forward, from going where I want to go. I've always been a fighter, always wanting things to happen when and how I want them to happen, making many people say to me often "You can't force things". In this goal that is so close to my heart, I find myself alone and while I work and work and work at all the things I can do while I'm alone, there will come a time where I need the help of others. It seems to me like the time has come already, and I'm just running in circles doing again and again what has already been done, because I don't know where to turn, who to ask for directions. It's more frustrating than fun. A mix of being full of self-doubt and still trying to say "Hey, I'm right here. Work with me, I swear, I'm worth it!" Am I? I guess we'll see. Vx